The Idiosyncrasies Of My Daily Life

I CHANGED SITE!!

2006-10-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

i'm leaving blogger for good!! i think.
but for now im gonna use wordpress.com!!!!

new link: http://jacobalvarez.wordpress.com

2006-10-09T17:01:00.000+08:00

Favourite colour: blue and black... haha
Favourite food: anything edible and non-spicy, =)
Favourite movie: Hairy Porter was quite interesting. and star wars. and GOAL! =D(haven't watch yet though=x)
Favourite sport: Soccer, tennis and badminton
Favourite ice-cream: Vanilla!
Favourite TV shows: not much really, Viva la bam, and the last airbender=S
Current mood: dead. bored. bored.
Current clothes: full suit with a hat to go with it.=) (obviously FAKE lah)
Current desktop: the pic? ohh. using my sis's profile so naturally her baby photo lah.
Current toenail colour: i just polished ytd, i think its pink. (yes, you guessed it, im lying. just the normal colour)
Current time: 5.04pm
Current annoyance: my procrastination in doing my bloody art.
Current thoughts: her? =D
First best friend: breyann
First crush: p3? =x
First movie: can't really rmbr
Last cigarette: i dont smoke.
Last car ride: last week? dont rmbr
Last crush: haha. ;)
Last phone call: an hour ago
Last CD played: HILLSONG UNITED!!
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: if that counted, yea
Have you ever broken the law: yea, littering, spitting,vandalising, murder, arson and alot of other minor stuff. HAHHAA. noooooooooppe
Have you ever been arrested: nope
Have you ever skinny dipped: nooo.
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: haha. no.
Have you ever loved and lost somebody: yep. but not death kind of lost la.

yep. exams over. well technically, there still art and dnt. but who CARES?? haha. today was maths and sci. maths= a bit easy. sci=bearable. not sure.
so tomorrow's art. what to do? shipwreck. not sure what would be the morale of the story, thought.

i am Poetically Pathetic. and Change Your Mind, It Ends Tonight in Constant Static. Swing Swing on Top Of The World, I Can't Hold Back For What Its Worth. If I Fall, Move Along, Save Me From Me. Let It Enfold You, The Irony Of Dying On Your Birthday, and Angela Baker & My Obsession With Fire. Postcards and Letters Of Regret. All That I've Got, Hard To Say, I'm A Fake, A Lunacy Fringe.

Say Days Ago, On My Own, I Buried Myself Alive, A Poetic Tragedy. Choke On This Lady In A Blue Dress, You Look Cute When You Scream.You're No Angel, Where Is My Heart.

Hahaha. that's lame. i got all those from names of songs in my iTunes. just put them together with all the And's and The's. so yeah. its crappy, but fun! =DD

The walls are breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave alone
A weight is lifted on this evening
I give the final blow
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight, it ends tonight
-The All-American Rejects

ARMIES AND ARMIES AND ARMIES OF THEM

2006-10-06T17:32:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhh! jonathan and eugene think tooooooo far la.

hah. anyway today we had..... HISTORY!!!!!!! almost didnt have enough time to do the paper as they asked to stop writing just when i put the LAST FULL STOP. PHEWWWWW. haha. as i sat there smiling as relieved i checked that all my papers had my name on them. on doing that. guess what. worst nightmare. MY MCQ WAS BLANK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHH! BUTTTT, luckily i quick quick quick go do do do. then i finished JUST as ms Yoges stopped at my desk to collect my paper. PPPPHEEEWWWWWWWW. FORTUNATELY there were only ten questions. more of q's and i would have SUFFERED. yepyep:DD

so yea. after that i went to eat at Mac's with Chicken-Yawn and Piglet. saw SHERYL and her boyfriend.

then we went to library and found a CUBE
saw a lot of people, yea.then eugene jon and pixie arrived shortly after. ahah. then after 15 mins of peaceful studying, we stole piglet's phone and started taking pics of EVERYTHING see-able. like the ceiling, textbook, and whatnot. yep.

after which eugene and jon started talking about ARMIES, BLOOD, BABIES, AND MILITARY. tsk tsk tsk. sick sick people. yep. then piglet and chicken-yawn went off. :( yep then me and eugene went home. so that was my so-called """"exhiliarating"""" day.

It's undeniable that we should be together
It's unbelievable, how I used to say that I'd fall never
The basis is need to know
If you just don’t know how I feel
Then let me show you that now I'm for real
If all the things in time, time will reveal. =DD

328days.

BURNNN TIME PLEASEEEE

2006-10-05T10:17:00.000+08:00

ahhhh! its so boring here at boring boring bishan. doing boring boring stuffs. typing on a boring boring keyboard. boring boring.

yesterday just sucked... okay la. exams were "i don't know" kinda things. jackpot answers. which you were never sure of. and lit. was okay. did three pages of answers. that's a puny number i think. so yep. after that we went to library and studied. and then went on a mission to smuggle in 3litres of drinks into the library. suceeded, only for a librarian warning us when we were about to sit down. haha. then studied. then stayed there 5 and 1/2 hrs. woah. that's a lot. yep. worth the time though =D wasted a bit of time reversing our names. just like, nayrb gn(guess who), acsis otnayrah =DD, nahtanoj eel, and bocaj zeravla. HAHAAA. yup. that's how nonsensical we can get.

haha. today's MT paper and im supposed to be in the hall now doing my chinese paper, but instead i didnt feel like it, i phoned the DM and told him i didnt want to. =D so yeah. now its boring boring stuffs.

going out later to j8, gonna go change my oversized huge shoes, and then meet them at the library.for study. again.

ppppiiiigggglllleeettt!!!!!!!!!!!=DDDD

2006-09-29T17:59:00.000+08:00

hey guys. i havent been updating too much, i dont think at all. haha. cause im caught up in OFM(nice game), studies(not so nice game), french(not nice at all), and piglet =P(WONDERFUL=D) haha. anyw, all the best to all for end-of-years! =D hahaha.

PIGLET!!! =DDDD

2006-09-10T19:46:00.000+08:00

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Christopher is your soulmate.

You truly love Elias.

You consider Weng Sun your true friend.

You know that Si Xuan is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Sisca for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Eugene is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Mark is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Derek is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Derek changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think Joash is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Joash has a hidden internet romance.

What Do You Think of Your Friends?

this is completely stupid. utter nonsense. =.- ret-ta-ard-ded.

2006-09-05T15:50:00.000+08:00

ohh mann. Steve Irwin just died on monday. he was filming something dangerous and deadly JUST SO THAT his daughter could watch something interesting. You can actually cry of how he gave his life just for a simple entertainment of his daughter! imagine. not just this situation. imagine a poverted father robbing shops just so his kids can have something to play with and most importantly so his family can eat. even in death steve irwin has presented a great lesson for us teenagers to learn.our parents love us. some of you might hate them for not giving you hp or for some other reason but they'll still love you even if you killed someone. they'd take your place in prison if they had to. sometimes you might not understand why your parents dont let you go out or whatever. thier reason is not for you to know. its to PROTECT YOU. yet all of us dont even appreciate this. we take them for granted. i may sound like some lecturer or something but this event really struck me. i just dont know whether all of you can get mature enough to see it from the same view. with all due respect, not blasting anyone here in anyway.

im just saddened.

i found out what's with the turtles on msn nicks already. they're tributes tio the late croc hunter. and since the closest looking to a reptile is a turtle in msn. its a tribute. and you can actually see how many people respect him.

BEST:
1. Male friend: elias
2. Female friend: sisca
3. Vacation: Sydney, it ROCKSS.

WORST:
1. Time of the day: 4pm?
2. Day of the week: tues. cause she hates it too and i normally i have french and nth else on.
3. Food: definitely bitter stuff and spicy stuff too
4. Memory: THAT TIME. you know you know? that time. you dunno? oh wells. i forgot anyw. =D

LAST:
1. Person you saw at school/work: eh i forgot.
2. Talked to on the phone: sisca
3. Person who Instant Messaged: sisca

TODAY:
1. What are you doing now: protagonizing(what does it mean?)
2. Wearing: home clothes
3. Better than yesterday?: nope.

TOMORROW:
1. Is: Wednesday.
2. Got any plans: band.?
3. Goal: get a drums solo for MI2 done.
4. likes about tomorrow: drumming?

FAVORITE:
1. Number/s: 7! 11!
2. Song/s: There Is by Boxcar Racer has always stood out through the years.

CURRENTLY:
1. Missing someone: yeah
2. Mood: not much.
3. Wanting: to go play soccer? see her? =x

TRUE or FALSE:
I am a morning person: yes yes yes
I am a perfectionist: yep
I am an only child: i have an emo brother and a screamo sis.
I am currently in my pajamas: no no no way
I am currently pregnant: wait. let me check.
I am currently single: yes. currently
I am currently suffering from a broken heart: nope
I am left handed: FALSE
I am addicted to friendster: hven't been there for weeks
I am online 24/7: nope.
I am very shy around the opposite gender: not at all.
I currently have a crush on someone: yeah..
When I get mad I curse frequently: no.
I enjoy country music: no. no. no.
I enjoy smoothies: depends on what flavor?
I enjoy talking on the phone: provided someone's on the other line.
I have a hard time paying attention at school/work: sometimes. half half? haha.

NOT TRUE!
I have a hidden talent: i dont really know. cause its probably hidden?
I have a lot to learn: oh yes.
I have all my grandparents: nope.
I have at least one brother and/or sister: One each
I have been told that I am smart: hahaha. parents. but im not.

Sunday i had a football match against army peoiple. SIAO. thirty fourty plus, they can still run that fast. CRAZY. ended 4-3. i didnt score though. CAME CLOSE. top corner saved by keeper. hahaha. next time. next time.

Monday. yesterday. was jamming in the morning then. afternoon nothing much.

today went to hospital for some checkup. then now im at home doing nth. haha

well i screwed up again. )=

well now you know. I'll wait, and however long it will take, i will wait. 359. iloveyou.

2006-08-31T17:20:00.000+08:00

TEACHERS' DAY

broring performances in the hall accompanied by the ever-hated ACES thing. but after was fun la. =D hahaha. went with them to watch movie.first, ate at food court then we went to buy tickets for "the devil wears prada" . its a nice show. then after thet we went macdonalds' slack there for 2 hrs i think. then like that la. now im here typing. =DD.

2006-08-31T16:48:00.000+08:00

You Are Sunshine

Soothing and calm, You are often held up by others as the ideal. But too much of you, and they'll get burned.
You are best known for: your warmth Your dominant state: connecting

What Type of Weather Are You?

Your EQ is 147

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!

51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.

71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.

91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.

111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.

131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.

150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's" Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

2006-08-28T18:47:00.000+08:00

haha. im so sorry for not blogging for how many days?? oh its just two days since i blogged? hhaha. oh man, how time passes by so slowly.

today was and funnier than average day. considering i spent almost half the day with Joash. oh really. he can crap well.
yeah. just now i had Talent Trek Auditions. where we were the only band who played acoustic. and the drums was really really echoing the whole basement. so its like one hit can echo abt 5 times. its that bad. then Kim said we played not too bad.(bad thing) but she said we were unique conpared to the other bands(GREAT THING) then she's gonna announce results tmr.and oh yeah. we were also the only lower sec band there. so that gives us the oh-so-wonderful benefit of the doubt. =D You Qin said we played well. hahha. good good.

)= may i please know?

2006-08-26T14:46:00.000+08:00

You Are An INTJ

The Scientist
You have a head for ideas - and you are good at improving systems.Logical and strategic, you prefer for everything in your life to be organized.You tend to be a bit skeptical. You're both critical of yourself and of others.Independent and stubborn, you tend to only befriend those who are a lot like you.
You would make an excellent scientist, engineer, or programmer.

What's" Your Personality Type?

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:
You have medium extroversion.You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."
Conscientiousness:
You have high conscientiousness.Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.Most things in your life are organized and planned well.But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.
Agreeableness:
You have medium agreeableness.You're generally a friendly and trusting person.But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.
Neuroticism:
You have low neuroticism.You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.
Openness to experience:
Your openness to new experiences is high.In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

2006-08-21T18:12:00.000+08:00

MY BIRTHDAY.

sisca sms-ed to wish me at 11.59 pm ytd. haha. first one to wish me. then next was bernice at 12 am. then stella song at 4.42. yeah. then i reach sch and eugene wished me too...

so yeah. i thank people like sisca,bernice,stella,eugene,grace,loretta,stephen,keuk jing, and so on for making my day =D

in the end i only recieved one present which was a bookmark from bernice. yupp. haha. thanks.

as each year goes by, i think more and more that birthdays are just excuses for people to claim and reap presents. i mean, who cares if you were born on that day? its like you're counting closer and closer to age 60! and all that matters is that you're still ALIVE. haha yeah.

anyw on a lighter note, im going to pizza hut later!! hhaha. yay.

im still burned out.
I really dont know already.

2006-08-20T18:15:00.000+08:00

..............................................................

I.AM.SO.TIRED.

THURS. i had french which ended at 7. then i had to do hmwrk until 12 plus. so very little sleep.
FRIDAY. Band then church until 11 plus. got home at 11.30-ish? then slept late again.
SAT. YTD. band in the morning. then rushed to church for anniversary practice. then ended at 9 plus. very tired by then. burned out already.
SUN. TDY. had to come to church early at 8.30? then until 1 had church. ate quickly came back here to church for anniversary practice. until now. which is 6.30. i am burned out. every inch of my evergy has been sapped. im mentally, emotionally, and physically. Give me a break far from here.

im now here at church. tired. but im not gonne give up. hahaha. so yeah. staying here until 8 o'clock for the night service. havent eaten dinner yet. i doubt i will until i reach home at 9. then later i do not plan to slp until 1 am. haha. my birthday countdown. haha. and that leads to the bet i made with shimin. if she wins the bet i will give her a HUGE lollipop as big as your face. haha. not saying the bet now . i'll say it tomorrow when i post. so yeah. WAIT FOR IT. now NJ's playing "start of sth new" O.o ................... rahhhhhhhhh. burned burned burned out. now he's playing there is. HAHAHAHA YAY!!!gtg now. update again later.

2006-08-14T17:47:00.000+08:00

Its just so nice when white noise burns all my sorrows away.

empty your mind.
forget your sorrows.
burn your emotions.
trash your feelings.
cry your sadness away.
drown it in the vacuum of your mind.
the memories too.

2006-08-14T15:34:00.000+08:00

14DAYS to my birthday!!!!!

haha people. i DO NOT need a present. please , dont waste your money on idiots like me but instead use the money to yourself a lollipop! =D haha i'm really serious!!!

Elias is really having a very hard time. he's at a point that could be the lowest. i just hope he doesnt do anything silly. cause it'll cause even more pain to people around.

yesterday. =D

I went church then ate at kopitiam XD youth peoples. then after that played DotA and counter strike. haha. i got trashed at dota since i used a lousy hero then at counter strike i DOMINATED. hahaha. they were on the verge of kicking me out. i always killed people b4 anyone could even start the massacre. haha. too bad.

then after that took train from dhoby ghaut to CHOA CHU KANG. WOAH. im surprised to even survive that trip. at least Sisca was sms-ing me at least keep me awake. then at the birthday party there, the youth played Bluff and then Truth and Dare. my brother is crazy. he comes up with the moronic dares. like once, he asked Gian to go into the middle of that eating hall(? or sth like that) then shout "OI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" really loud then just look stupidly still for 10 seconds there. haha. the youth were almost laughing thier food out. then another was to go to the organizing adult there and ask where the birthday party was gonna be held when we've been in it for like 2 hrs. hahaha. Dale kept 3 Queens in his pocket so he never really got the lowest card( which means you wont kena T or Dare.) haiii. it was fun. then i went home watch Liverpool vs Chelsea. haha i shallnot go rant on about football for the sake of the anti-football ppl who are reading this. LIVERPOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

then today was a rollercoaster day. first music we found out the music exam was PERFECT condition for me elias and david perform. =D
we are so gonna ace that exam. =X i think.
then he explained so much the exam until we were 30 mins late for history. then mrs lai was suuuuuuuuuper angry then booooooooooom. in class she slam everything on the table. then shout here shout there. then i found out we going ford factory with 2G then my hist marks was 26!! =D

then recess eugene continued with his nonsense about me and sisca being tgt O.o that is so lame.

then sci over eng and mrs Lau's stuff with the maze and perserverance.i wasnt sure i was in english class.. ): / =D

i'm so addicted to If I Fall.

oh man. i want my specs backkkk.

wth. wtffffff.

haiiiiiii. i really dont know if its worth continuing having false hope when i really dont have a speck's chance.

2006-08-12T14:35:00.000+08:00

This is for the ones, who believe their lives won't change,
Hoping that some day things will mend and be the same,
This is for the ones, who have lost it all, and all that's left to gain,
Is a simple reminder that the things that we're blind to slip away,
How can I say, say I'll be ok?

And if I fall through these days that go by without,
Cause just a painful mistake has left me here on my own,
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on,
_

Now that the line's been broken,
I'm too afraid to just look back,
The pages have left an empty space,
You were all I had,
Why does it have to be this way?
These things, they'll never change,
Still I'm left with knowing, content and happy, this is all I need,

And if I fall through these days that go by without,
Cause just a painful mistake has left me here on my own,
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on,
_

sometimes i wonder why i care so much about you and keep being a friend. and this is so not about sx.

you're not the person i used to know.

2006-08-10T17:25:00.000+08:00

"Scheduled outage at 4:00PM"O.o
that's blogger.com btw. =D

im back from my 2 day stay-over at changi safra resort.
first night played soccer. shockingly boys vs girls. didnt count score. since we totally won. X )
then pool the next morning. i so totaly trashed dale and &co winning 5 out of 4 games! WOOOHOOOO. but i wasted 15 bucks though. RAWR!!!! and i lost at air hockey too. )=

then after that we played with cards! haha it was fun. there was a totally new way to play truth and dare. and that pairs game was nice too. :) thanks to gen, who helped waste 3 hours of our time there! haha . goodgoodgood. right after that we went to play bowling, where i got two strikes and one spare. in one GAME!!!! yay. and as SistaSisca said, im like sooo pro. X)
AMBER PACIFIC!!!!!! oh man, i missed thier music for these two days. haha.

haii. these few days i've seen people regretting badly abt speaking too fast and not thinking. really. you must THINK before saying anything. 10 seconds often makes the difference btwn happiness and regret.

james 1:19

Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger;
=D

my friend has just seen a propganda i think that is worthy of fulfilling the prophecy in the Word. be careful my brothers.

i still havent done hmwrks and im gonna watch Click later.

haha.i'd better go.

With every word we're growing distant,And I feel as if I have to let you know...

I love you.

2006-08-08T18:00:00.000+08:00

one good thing for today, you found my new blog add.like the skin? TAG.

plus-44 and angels and airwaves. the both sons of blink182. they all good. so is boxcar racer. who would have thought three normal looking men turned out to make some of the great rock revolutions in music history?

okay enough about that.

later im going to a chalet. not class just with church. good thing is, mum's going to be there, so i can use her phone instead of wasting my own phone. bad thing is, they're gonna be ngging nagging nagging. haha. never mind. i dont think anyone will notice or miss me for the next three days =D

woah, just now NDP2006. its finally over! though chris played in a tempo not even in the same world as joel's at one time, it was okay for the rest of the show. and we plyed MI2 twice. so im contented. dno why. =D

Sisca, dont be SO worried la. IM OKAY. tell loretta too. im not gonna kill myself. -rolls eyes-

Distraction-AvA(AngelsAndAirwaves)

I'll be your distraction
I'll be your distraction

There's a field nearby
With words written in stone
My love will not die
Please let be known
This place is dead
It echoes through town
There isn't one voice
I haven't heard a sound

The planes flew in
Their bombs did too
The city fell flat
The fires they grew
When the smoke comes in
It’ll color this town
But I'll still have you
So I'll say it aloud

I'll be your distraction
I'll be your distraction

The friendship we made
Is a waste of our time
There's no one left here
To show future that's kind
It's a world of hate
Gone incredibly wrong
We cared too late
We just followed along
And the boys went down
With their gun in their hand
Their weapon of choice
Their knees in the sand
If that field nearby
Was still there to be used
Would you ever have known?
Those words were for you

I'll be your distraction
I'll be your distraction

I'll be, I'll be yours
I'll be, I'll be yours

I was playing, she looked at me. she turned away. and smiled. i missed ten heartbeats. and ten bars of drum set. at least she was beautiful.

IT DAY

2006-07-25T11:28:00.000+08:00

boringgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg. it days suck. i'd rather be in school, than sitting here staring at the com. anyw i finished all my hmwrk alr, except english, which no one KNOWS how to Do. sadddd.

so now im wrapping up my history project which was really easy. either that or my research just sucked. and Everyone's spamming the class tagboard with nonsense. and Type4(yes, we havent changed the name.) is planning on joining talent trek 2006.not just that. im waiting to see jiajun and band play. hahaha.but hey, good luck ming chuen!! only thing im afraid of is that we'll come up against the "emo" society of the sch(if it really exists anyway.) if they're playing, that's bad. if they're not , that's bad too. cause they'll be laughing t how pathetic our songs will be either way. now we nd people's chioce of songs so tag which songs u wanna see us play for TALENT TREK.

so back to ytd. we had some NDP prctice after school in the hot hot hot sun. had to bring out the whole drumset just to play one dumb song. we just stood there whacking away trying to get the sound across the parade ground which nvr really happened. and after it all, as wsn described. i went from brown to black. haha. so damn mr tan and his idiotic idea of putting us in the middle of the parade ground.
well after thata we had water parade, first one wet was sinyi. but first one fully wet was Adeline. haha mostly by me. hahaha. in the end they ganged up on me and mde me fully wet too. lucky i nvr bring hp to sch that day. after that, home time. and i discovered my father returned my hp and iPod(that was fast) and i got my profile back onto the com. so yeah. argh. i nd to stop getting blacker and blacker.

anyw bbye guys. i nd to go get my sis from her nursery sch in 5 mins.later guys.

2006-07-21T16:39:00.000+08:00

Past week i have seen 4 people with Paul Twohill's hair and they all are posers. what is it with people trying to be emo? plus, they dont even know that ITS EMO. dunno what's emo? go find in wikipedia.

anyw today, i managed to keep my nametag and not lose it. in sci Joash gave some words of wisdom. " The day i die laughing is the day i see (sci teacher's) face in the obituraries." hahaha. so badddd. Thus elias following with " the day i see esaint grow is the day i die laughing." LOL.

i'm so tired today.

during that fateful english period belicia went to draw on my hand. which said "i love xuanz.=)" anyone know what it means? im quite slow. adagiooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
then during assembly we changed the school song and pupil's pledge to KFC(derek's) pledge.

Do It For Me Now- Angels And Airwaves

It's a frightening night, and the wind has a roar
It seeps through the hall, and from under the door
Like the shit that was said
Can't take it that well
I give and i give and i give and i give and im still
lost and hurt and bone thin, from the love that's been starved
I know I got close but I'm sure it's too far
From the point of suspense, we know it should be
The end of the part, of our favorite movie

When the guy grabs the girl and gives her his hand
Says take me away from this torturous land
Cause the grave is set up, the hole that i dug
I gave and i gave and i gave and i gave you my trust
Like the time that we kissed, and you gave me a lie
To add to the scene you pretended to cry
But im here and I'm cool, the way that it is
Just give me a chance and I'll try to forgive

And I don't know
And I cant guess
if it's gonna be OK
But now, my last wish
Is that you do this with me

Kiss me here, and hold my hand
Let me feel like I'm the only one
I know you can
Won't you do if for me now

I really had it with the rain and the tears
The predictable storm that has come every year
And it sneaks from shore with a bat in its hand
Im tryin Im tryin Im tryin Im tryin I cant
You're a thief and a witch, but if love you to death
You steal my heart and curse under your breath
But the one thing that i will most willing prove
That when you are gone
I'll be fine without you

And I don't know
And I cant guess
if it's gonna be OK
But now, my last wish
Is that you do this with me

Kiss me here, and hold my hand
Let me feel like I'm the only one
I know you can
Won't you do if for me now

Now just hold on, hold on to me
Hold on, hold on to me(hold on to me)
Hold on, hold on to me(hold on to me)

She's sweet
her eyes are beautiful
her voice is angelic
one move of her hand
could knock me across the room
let alone her talking to me
i long for the day
i can run my hand
through her raven tresses
though i know that day will never come
the day that i'll be close
to her pretty face
coz she doesnt deserve
someone like me.

i love u.

2006-07-20T15:01:00.000+08:00

sorry for not updating often. can't really use the computer unless my parents aren't home. and btw, they think i dont know the password they put to keep up out.BIG mistake. :P and can some people TAG?! hahha. my tagboard is like so very super duper uber empty. anyw, this blog is supposed to be viewed in Internet Explorer, NOT mozilla, thus the lousy font and slow loading.

okay, lets recall ytd. poeple in class started calling Darren, ZincBoy, Zinccccck, or just plain Zinc. bcoz of his bag name.(lame.) haha so yeah. spent the whole day calling him Zinc.

Has anyone sold all thier postcards??? anybody??? Ms yoges forcing us to sell. so yeah. its kind of a scam, with no one wanting to use postcards, plus the drawings are so ugly(no offense, but the dont belong there, they should be put up in museums or sth where every1 will "appreciate" them, and maybe make millions of money.) fat hope.

During band, me and youqin were asked to switch parts for the song of the prairie bcoz i played the cymbals too loud. MUAHAHAHA. sad. Ah Tan could have just asked me to play softer. O.o so now You Qin's going to play for the set piece. haha. it's hard. i suck at it. i mean the fairy song. And soooooon we are going to buy a new bass drum skin, due to me breaking the last one. hahaha. things are going well.
then after band we played soccer, with me giving christopher tang a painful stomach massage(accident), and almost denting the basketball post with my wild shots. then i came home late, after my father, then he scolded me once again. then he took away my iPod and hp AGAIN. i just hope he wont lose my iPod again. haha. not that harsh, my hp had no more top up anyw. hahah.yeah. talk about perfect timing.

back to today.
lost my name tag in assembly(someone took it) then MT. the teacher was teaching pri sch stuff, even i could tell. lousiest chinese teacher i have ever seen.( not that it will affect me. HAHA.), then maths and recess. Elias was HAPPY, a word he is almost NEVER associated with, and for the first time in 7 months, he was WHISTLING. wth. sth must have happened, me and eugene are out to find out what. haha. Then english, ms Rai talking about how "inefficient" president Bush was. though all of us knew she really meant "stup*d". she was trying to be " politically correct", so yeah. interesting lesson. then SCIENCE came, had some fun with darren. with the class boys singing Zinc songs.

Examples: Happy Birthday to Zinc. , My Zincky lies over the ocean, Mary had a little Zinc, and our favourite, It is Zinc who builds community. hahaha. we should release an album.

Then history, some boys played with computer. you know. going to desktop then selecting all the icons, then pressing eenter. u should try it. YOUR COM WILL LAG FOR AN HOUR. esspecially esaint's. which had 117 items running all at once. haha. this monkeying around bought us a meeting with Mrs Lai after school.
yea then after school, we were asked to stand in parade ground facing !2grace! class in the hot sun. hahaha. she and her friends were still inside though. (hahaha yay) then after that went home lor. now im here typing this. HAIIII. Art tomorrow.

I want to talk to her. i just can't. im such a coward. idiot me.
I love you, sx.

2006-07-14T19:40:00.000+08:00

hi guys. mr.screw-up here.
today was even more of a SCREW-UP. only good things that happened was eugene and elias being NICE people and lending me yellowcard and Maroon5 albums respectively. and OH YES. I FOUND MY IPOD AFTER 60000000000 Years of turning the house upside down left and right. it was in my brother's bag all along. -.= how did my father put it there? and why?

I have to get past that line. yes, that line which will end all pain and folly. problem is, the line seems to run. fast. fast-er than i can afford to crawl. past that line i know there will be enough mistakes and i wont screw up anymore. Damn that moving line.

Today felt totally pointless, boring and empty. only four people might know why. i felt as if i could just fall onto the field wet with mud and rain on my face and just scream. and you won't hear cause you just can't care enough even if i was thunder-blasted off the face this Earth.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=cfi8epUIatw&mode=related&search=Angels%20and%20airwaves%20it%20hurts. AvA rocks my world.

2006-07-13T15:03:00.000+08:00

I'm such a screw up. This or that? Anyw once again, elias and eugene managed to release VALUABLE information which my life depended upon. nice work guys. damn these character first activities. and damn that invisible pen.

yesterday. i left band early to go back to pri sch band, only to find out that they went out of school to sch(?) i think. in the end we just went ljs to eat. after that i went back home. -where is my ipod!?!?!-. causing me to use that huge disc player.

today. a lot of secrets flying here and around. i just hope they dont get out. and now im at home typing this and watching hsm(actually not me, my sister.)and waiting to leave for french, which i have just rmbred, i havent done hmwrk.

i have to get 60bucks. fast.

It Hurts- Angels and Airwaves

Is this what you want
Cause everybody acts without a clue
Every little kiss and grin you gave
Was just a little bullshit I saw through

The alcohol is scented with your breath
You're always all done up to just be used
I'm waiting for excuses that deceive
I'll meet you in the back to see them through

How did I let her insideWe're dripping of sweat,
I'm feeling alright
Her lips were the last thing touched tonight
Your best friend is not your girlfriend
It hurts...

Are you out of your mind
You dug yourself into a liar's hole
You made a little spark to live inside
It's now a fucking fire out of control
When the morning comes you'll act surprised
And when the word gets out it will get old
And every day you'll try to live your life
And every little scandal will unfold

How did I let her inside
We're dripping of sweat,
I'm feeling alright
Her lips were the last thing touched tonight
Your best friend is not your girlfriend

Sherrie, do you want it?
Sherrie, I want it too

Your best friend is not your girlfriend

2006-07-09T09:49:00.000+08:00

heyho. im back after 8(?) days of no blogging. nothing is really up except eugene & elias bombarding thier blogs with my nonsense. Eugene has a really big mouth. he can't keep it shut. hahaha. yeah. yesterday we went to band. after that to northpoint(with the two thinking i was following her(-rolls eyes-). nonsense. haiii. home sweet northpoint hahaha.after eating we went to arcade. played house fo the freaking dead 4. we were finished off by the second boss, really. long time never play alr. then we went to the music shop. and woah, what a surprise. haha. anyw we looked for maroon5 and it never was found. and after they dropped some cd's and browsed around they went off, leaving us three to stare at the new angels and airwaves album.

Youth Day.

2006-07-03T16:06:00.000+08:00

youth day.

Anything happened?

oh nothing really. this day should be called HOMEWORK DAY.
rushing hmwrk now.

anyway... you guys like this new skin?

SCREWED.

2006-06-26T18:28:00.000+08:00

6.30
Well, if you bothered to read the title, you would noe that i am absolutley SCREWED. we have to have some latin song that lasts 5 mins to play on FRIDAY. that's like 4 freaking days. not just pick from any song, WE are going to MAKE IT. i need help. serious help.

6.35
hahaha. 5 mins later i have found it. good ol' youtube. RODNEY HOLMES IS CRAZY.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=jjH1Uc-t4ps&search=Rodney%20Holmes%20latin%20groove
omg. did you see that stick flip? and that semiquaver left foot?(for music junkies.)

i.n.s.a.n.e.

(note: he's nowhere close to the best i think.)
and i have to learn that mind u. or at least some of it.

yesterday i was talking to elias, and i was so bored to crap. so i asked elias too say sth random. u noe what he said?

"SHI MIN ROCKS N U NOE IT."
zzzzzzzzzzzz.

haha
i dun wanna say what i reply. haha. for safety purposes.

and yeah, due to some complains of my blog being very troublesome and "clicky" i'm looking for a new skin.

so yeah. that concludes my boring day.

WATER!!!

2006-06-25T19:12:00.000+08:00

Haiii. you can only marvel at how many uses water has. HAHA it was damn fun lah. very very very very fun. Only that *&W@*%^#*(@% security guard spoiled it all. In the end we never mop. And we all spent the time trying to dry in the hot hot hot sun. which caused me to get even darker. RAHHH. i have to get lighter again.

Me ,Elias , Eugene ate 4 boxes of pizza yesterday. i ate 4 pratas today. Hahaha. Full to sickness twice in two days.

Hahaha for those who dun understand. I am not natural black. i was born quite fair. only my addiction to soccer in the hot sun. which is also the reason my hair is so curly. hahaha. i have to stop soccer-ing. seriously. AND I AM NOT MALAY NOR INDIAN NOR CHINESE. Go find out.

a lot of people think that this weeks band was "intensive". my foot lah. pri sch was 9 -6 everyday yet i didnt feel it was torture then. HAHAHA. anyw playing your favourite and natural instrument helps. A LOT. drums is fun. But is requires discipline. A LOT OF IT. i didnt go through 8 years of training for nothing. and it wasnt JUST training. it was training non-stop. not just playing until u are tired. its playing til your hands drop off. and im still VERY lousy now. i still have a lot of things to cover. oh btw it was self trianing( actually in band only.) not with yamaha or christophori or whatever. And i have seem to have forgotten to play simple. yeah. im horrible.

You don't have to move, you don't have to speak
lips for biting.
You're staring me down, a glance makes me weak
eyes for striking
Now I'm twisting up when I'm twisted with you
brush so lightly
and time trickles down, and I'm breathing for two
squeeze so tightly.

I'll be fine, you'll be fine.this moment seems so long
Don't waste now, precious time
we'll dance inside the song

What makes the one to shake you down?
Each touch belongs to each new sound
Say now you want to shake me too
Move down to me, slip into you

She sinks in my mind as she sheds through her skin
touch sight tastes like fire
hands do now what eyes no longer defend
hands to fuel desire

I'll be fine, you'll be fine this moment seems so long
Don't waste now, precious time
we'll dance inside the song

Ooo, ah

And I'll be fine, you'll be fine
Is this fine? I'm not fine
Give me pieces, give me things to stay awake (stay awake)
Move down to me, slip into you

10.18 AM

2006-06-22T10:19:00.000+08:00

heh. I'm getting sick of staring at the clock, waiting for band to come. strange isnt it. things u cant wait for come slowly, things you want to wait for come slower than a snail already dead. yes. every seconds seems like a minute. hmmmmmm, i wonder how buzz lightyear got his name.
Haha, that was random.

The hype leading to World Cup turns out to be empty...completely empty. all the usual topscorers have only one or no goal to thier names at all. Argentina's getting scary. They might trash Brazil for once.
ok, right. soccer again.

Let's all have a cake throwing party. Or a pie eating contest. anything to un-bore the crap out of me.

And it seems everyone's listening to where'd you go by fortminor. haiiii. i was listening to that 2 months ago.

play the glockinspiel(bells)? 'No pasa nada!'(No problem.) Or maybe there is. its based purely on sight reading and rhythym. I'm dead. But we'll if WanXian can even play the drumset or triplets. That may be my escape card. hahaha

hmm. what song shall i put today. oh yeah. promise.

Promise by MatchbookRomance

What would you say if I asked you not to go

To forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me

Would you take my hand and never let me go

Promise me you'll never let me go

And now the stars aren't out tonight,

But neither are we to look up at them

Why does hello feel like goodbye?

These memories can't replace,

These wishes I wished and dreams I chased

Take this broken heart and make it right

I feel like I lost everything when you're gone

Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me

I thought you should know,You're not making this easy

I never thought I'd be the one to say

Please don't, well please don't leave me

I feel like I lost everything when you're gone

Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me

I thought you should know,You're not making this easy

You're not making this easy

Take my hand and never let me go,

Promise me...You'll never let go

You'll never let go

Make this last forever

I feel like I lost everything when you're gone

Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me

I thought you should know, You're not making this easy

I'll fall asleep tonight, 'cause that brings me closer to you

boringgggg.

2006-06-21T00:32:00.000+08:00

maths.band.maths.band.maths.band.

a great way to spend the holidays. just 8 more days or 7?, and i still havent done any work for school. AND i still have not played any soccer. unbelievable...

Star**b is scamming us. they dont even show the world cup for free. *!@#@!#%.

Will someone organise some kind of outing. class or whatever.

haha i owe a lot of people presents.
=
Elias>soccer boots.
JiaYin> i dont know.
Japhia>don't know.
Samuel>some wellington boots.
Belicia> some striped top she's telling me about.
Adeline> Also dont know.
Anyone i left out, that's your problem.
(Hahaha kidding. just tag.)

Morals of some cartoons

2006-06-12T17:46:00.000+08:00

Jimmy Neutron: Something is wrong when you have the biggest brains in the world but your father has a hobbie like ducking.

I.m.weasel: Smart people can't be used to compensate stupid ones, you'll just make it worse.

Cow and chicken: Having one night-stands with animals don't really work

This is it. The real boredom.

2006-06-08T19:06:00.000+08:00

Hi.

I'm sitting trying to drink this totally frozen root beer from the can while i watch the time pass by. every hour has 360 minutes. and every minute has 720 seconds. this is total boredom. now i know.

ouch.

Here we go. World Cup.

2006-06-07T18:06:00.000+08:00

yeap. the grounding isnt as strict as i expected long term. He now lets me use the computer. i'd better go review my maths again.

I just have to have a class chalet at the end of the year. HAVE TO. plans in my head all coming up. haha. you'll see.

Its 6:06 pm right now. just doodling on this blog. i wanna go see x-men2 again. Channel 5 sunday at 6.45 pm. ahaha. our battlefield now doesnt work. oh man. why now? why not 30 days tmr. just when i'm allowed to use the com again it spoils. rahhhhhh.

I dont really understand why people can say lampard is a better player than gerrard. gerrard defends better, is more versatile, has one of the hardest shots, can play with more heart and has a better shot. plus he can pass much more better than fat lamps.(that 80 yard pass to drogba was really just a punt. psst. no one was near drogba.) even gerrard's assist to cisse was better than what lampard can do in 100 years. and gerrard does that constantly and much better.gerrard's top 30-50 goals is better than lampard's top 10 goals. only thing i admire about lampard is his goal against bayern munich. not that much though. gerrard's goal against aston villa was better.(pick any one). and lampard really just learns from 500 million euro's worth of player around him to learn from.

I'm bored.
1. Start Time: 6.32
2. Name: Jacob Josiah Santiago Alvarez
3. Nickname: -none- (i like my name)
4. If u were a skittle what color would you be?: red?
5. Chinese Zodiac: monkey
6. Zodiac: leo
7. Hair color: black
8. Eye color: dark-brown
9. Height: 171cm?
10. Favorite Color: red/dark-blue
11. glasses?: nope
12. Braces?: nope
13. Piercing/tattoos?: no
15. Area code: 570---

HAVE YOU EVER...
17. Cut your own hair?: definitely
18. Did you do something in the past month that you regret?: YES
20. Kissed someone who isn't ur g/f or b/f?: No.
21. Skipped school?: no
22. Bungee jumped?: no
23. Had sex outside?: nope
24. Dumped someone?: dumped? no. never had anyone.
25. Been arrested?: no
26. TP'd someone's house?: haha. no
27. Won something?: yes
30. Been rejected?: i dont remember.
31. Been to a funeral?: yes
32. Used a lighter?: yes
33. Been on stage?: yes

FAVOURITE...
34. Season: winter
35. Food: nothing spicy is okay.
36. Ice cream flavor: vanilla
37. School subject(s): PE/english
38. Person?: haha.
41. Book(s): a lot
42. Movie(s): x-men(currently)
43. Song?: There Is, Watch the wotld, a lot more
44. Park?:East Coast Park
45. State: singapore.
46. Place: home
47. Sport to watch : Soccer.
49. Bands/musicians: BOX CAR RACER
50. Letter(s): J.
51. Restaurant(s): Yoshinoya
52. Cartoon Character(s): Teen titans!!
53. TV Station(s): MTV/ESPN
54. Name for a son: Steven
55. Name for a daughter: ??

DO YOU PREFER...
56. Chocolate or Vanilla?: vanilla
58. Long relationships or one night stands?:Long.
59. Dogs or cats?: Dog.
60. Scary movies or comedies?: either.
61. Short hair or long: short.
62. Croutons or bacon bits?: CROUTONS
63. Kissing or hugging: kissing

WHAT'S THE FIRST THING THAT COMES TO MIND...
64. Mexicans: maracas/
65. School: Football.
66. Grass: green
67. Cow: beef!
68. Canada: maple leaf
69. Mouse: yeeba yeeba!
70. Hands: slapping. haha

IN THE PAST 48 HOURS HAVE YOU...
71. Watched a movie?: yes.
72. Talked on the phone?: yep.
73. Cried?: no
74. Threw up?: no
75. Drank a glass of water?: yes of course
76. Done Drugs?: no!
77. Read a book or magazine?: my maths!
78. Watched TV?: yes
79. Looked in the mirror?: yes
80. Taken a shower?: yeap
81. Taken a picture?: no
82. Listened to music?: yes
83. Kissed someone?: no
85. Told someone you liked them?: no

Yellowcard- Rough landing, Holly

Left the ground in black and white
And when the plane went down
The colors all aroundI know by now, the margin's slight
And still I can't get out
She's all I think about
Can't let her go
It's who you know

We came down to watch the world walk by
And all she found was trouble in my eyes
From the sky she pulled me down tonight
Let her go

She moves fast, takes control
And like a heart attack,
I know I can't turn back
And time just passed, nights moved slow
And she was all I had
I thought I'd never last
Can't let her go
It's who you know

We came down to watch the world walk by
And all she found was trouble in my eyes
From the sky she pulled me down tonight
Let her go

We came down to watch the world walk by
And all she found was trouble in my eyes
From the sky she pulled me down tonight

She calls out the farther that I fly
I love that sound so give me one more line
From the sky she pulled me down tonight
Let her go

Yups. 2nd sneak.

2006-06-06T18:27:00.000+08:00

Haha. im a lucky boy.2nd sneak. yesterday msn convos were cut short coz my parents suddenly came home, a very close call. So apologies if any convos with me were suddenly offline-ed.

Nothing really to say right now.

And my so-called grounding wasn't as tight as i expected. i just did about 30 sums just now then watched tee-vee. He didnt really bother about me after that. i still am itching to touch the computer often. And i do want to go out. oh well, i'll just wait.

Transfers aren't really moving, just shevchenko moving the chelski. most probably because of the world cup. Can somone remind me when its starting? i seem to have forgotten.

yesterday i played tennis. i couldn't really get my swing right,balls kept flying into the ground or out of the court. hahaha. but i do know how to serve now. and volley. can't wait for the next time. at least im learning more than those crappers in TaF club who is being taught by someone who can't even book a court. hehe. but i still suck at it though. now my right arm is pain like hell, stressed it a lot yesterday.

woah. what is this mystical purple subject combination form everyone is telling me about? i never got it though. you guys say its in the report bk? never saw any. anyway, im not quite sure of what to take. im not even sure how it works. will someone nice sacrifice thier valuable time to teach me? i'd appreciate it a lot. haha. as u see, im quite slack about my future studies right now. mainly because some administrative guy never gave me the damn form.

And i never got any homework, because i never came to school on the last day. i dont think there's science. i know there's history, but i dont know who's in my group. and i lost the maths worksheet.

I don't have any Box Car Racer song for today. i decided to put a christian song. apologies to any offended non-christians.

except from Who Am I by Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

I'm back.

2006-06-05T16:00:00.001+08:00

Hello there. im back from a long moment of exility. or whatever that means. my parents and whole family is out and i just noticed that my brother's profile is not on lock. yes, i do not have a profile for the moment. so yea. im just sneaking this in before they get back.

Algebra, what i have been doing for the past, let's see, 5 days. It seems like its been 5 years, seriously. to sit there writing stuff you dont really care about while all your friends are going out , chalet, soccer, playing, beach, eating, whatever. my ankle's still weak, its healing. And oh ya. My brother bought battlefield, just. crap. i cant even touch the com(except when its off). so do i just stand there staring at him kill countless numbers of people and envy? no, i can't even do that. while he indulges in violence, im there in my room, studying. oh ya, for people who don't know the situation, when i failed my maths, i got grounded to my room for the whole hols. no coming out except for eating. and no com, no hp, no iPod, no nothing. no freaking form of entertainment whatsoever. Haiz.... i miss soccer. and music. And msn. And her. i dont know if i can survive this month of insanity.

and sorry jacq for losing your flower! haha i was carrying so many things that i left it on the bus.

OH YEAH. Mr. Tan bought a double pedal for the drumset!!! yahoo!!! im gonna stay at band and pratice. hahaha. watch out willian im gonna trash you. haha jk,
And speaking of willian, he was crazy at the concert. playing all sorts of stuff that didnt fit into the damn song. haha. but its okay.he was too good. haha. i was crazy too, moving around backstage looking for percussion stuffs. I was NOT trying to go past her okay. haha, im really getting weak on my left hand. wahhhhh. next up: percussion ensemble we have one month to create and perfect a 5 min piece. just perfect. after that: PHantaSy concert 2006. whatever.cramped up life in secondary school. i miss primary school, where you played soccer till you dropped. haha

yesterday wasnt much. church, which was great, then i went to my friends house with my family. went swimming. pretty much everything.

haha. elias i salute you, you managed to turn your life around somehow. while im here suffering. teach me the force. turn my situation around. someone just save me from this hopeless prison.

I'm wierd, i should have just waited. waiting, something i always have failed to do.

Aargh, there's nothing to eat in this prison. wondering when to get the right moment to get that ball to my house.

haha. its ironic. i perservere when im in difficult situations, but in the first place, i didnt have any perserverance nor paitence. which was what got me in to trouble.

If she rejected that guy, what makes you think i even have a whisker's chance? should i go for it or leave it. if i never try i'll never know, but i'd rather not know since i expect bad results. so what do i do?

i got this quiz from elias' blog.

when is your birthday?
21st'aug'92

how are you feeling right now?
confused. patient.

favorite songs?
any song that could explain me in 500 lines maximum, but no song can. i cant find one. maybe there is for now.

what will be songs you would play if you were in a band...
saosin, box car racer, blink 182( not reaally songs, songs of these bands i mean.)

favorite subjects, if any..
i dont really favour further studies, the lessons dont really get used in life.

got any crushes?
haha.

favorite position on the soccer field?
free-role in the "hole". i just roam around scoring for fun really.

favorite shirt number?
eight. GERRARD. or 12.

how long have you been playing your instruments, if any?
drums- 8 yrs. piano-2 yrs. stopped for a long time.

after this, what shall you do?
spaz and eat my spaghetti.

what seems to be the most creepiest thing that happened to you?
Everytime she looks at me, i see that feeling. yet i know she doesnt like me.
i don't think of anything that's creepy, just out of the ordinary.

the song that is most applicable to you right now?
There Is by Box Car Racer.

on the scale of 1-10, rate yourself on how well do you play your guitar.
haha. i dont play guitar. but drums.... i'd say 7.

which affilations do you belong to?
Youth Abalze
TLWF
PHS
PHSSB
2hFC

who do you want to do this quiz?
Anyone who would bother to do this.

I Miss You- Blink 182

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)

GoodBye

2006-05-30T19:05:00.000+08:00

Caleb went off today, im actually surprised no one cried. But it was very silent and you could have pierced it with a needle. I never thought of him as a player, I always thought he was all good good and you know, good. I never knew he had a half-girlfriend(complicated). But I'll never see him again. GoodBye, my secret answered prayer.

My ankle is now almost fine, im just waiting for the bruising to go away.

I'm suffering from lack of football. Come on, get the transfers moving.BUT, there's an england/hungary game later in the morning, come on , sven just look at Gerrard, can't you use that brain of yours. We dont need Lampard, we need Gerrard. Scouts, get off your asses and come look for me, i might have potential. ;) .boyhood dreams..... haiz. i know its childish and crazy, but my current ambition is to be a football player, come on, everyone has had this before. I just dont have an inspiration to choose my future career. I need direction.

Woah i wasted 13 bucks today.(actually i bought caleb a book.) I dont think that movie will ever come.

These "Sorry ah, wrong number." people, they're getting on my nerves.

I need ideas for the calendar tab, tag please. if not, all you'll see there is football, football, soccer, blablabla and all.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, STEVEN GERRARD.

After seeing many of my friends not make it, i dont think i have that much a chance.

Goodbye My Lover- James Blunt

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.You have been the one.You have been the one for me.I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

(I am NOT in love with Caleb. You guys should know who. ;) )

Show me some die\rection.

Changed the Template: like it?

2006-05-29T15:29:00.000+08:00

Hahaha, i prefer this one over the other, more of me. I was actually torn apart with the decision between this one and the gerrard one. I flipped a coin, we all know which one won.

2006-05-29T11:52:00.000+08:00

Elias. I'm so sorry, i had to be the one to tell you. It felt almost like betrayal. I'm so sorry.

My ankle's fine now, though i have to have a bandage around it to keep it warm.

Yesterday at church provided a lot of healing for me.

Does she hate me or not? I dont know. Someone end the agony.

Caleb's going off tomorrow. He was a wonderful friend during his time here. An answered prayer, goodbye.

BOX CAR RACER

"There Is"

This vacation's useless, these white pills aren't kind

I've given a lot of thought on this 13-hour drive

I miss the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9

And slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights

I've given a lot of thought to the nights we use to have

The days have come and gone, our lives went by so fast

I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor

Where I laid and told you, but you sweared you loved me more

Do you care if i don't know what to say

Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me

Will i shake this off, pretend it's all okay

That there's someone out there who feels just like me

There is

Those notes you wrote me, I've kept them all

I've given a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall

With every single letter in every single word

There will be a hidden message about a boy that loves a girl

Do you care if i don't know what to say

Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me

Will i shake this off, pretend it's all okay

That there's someone out there who feels just like me

There is

2006-05-27T15:50:00.000+08:00

Swells gone. i think.Well, today was boring and all i did was go to band.

She probably thinks im a freak. Somebody just end the pain and tell me.

Here I Am

2006-05-26T19:00:00.000+08:00

Here i am again. Bored. But my foot's healing! i can finally walk properly, if not, a bit awkwardly. Thank God for his grace. It was just at 6 am i couldnt stand at all and i was screaming at the pain, and here i am now trying to figure out how my foot could have healed this fast. To be even walking without pain at this point is already a miracle.

Okay, let's backtrack past the days. Ahh. Wednesday. Project Caleb's Farewell Party. Result? Almost a failure but we'll never know. we we running all over the school 5 minutes before our supposed starting time. I had to get a crash, Elias had to fix the amplifiers, David had to get wires, Jonathan was trying to get mikes, and Samuel was..... the middleman in it all i can say. he was the negotiator with the chapel people. We start pretty late, like 30 minutes after actual time. We started with numb,encore, and with one mike. They somehow pulled it off okay and they got the crowd excited. Then the Type4 (We seriously need to change title) started. For people who want to get the songs, here they are.

And I by Box Car Racers(you can search for it in http://www.youtube.com/)
Gone So Young by Amber Pacific( you can get this at www.purevolume.com/amberpacific)Perfect by Simple Plan(www.youtube.com)

There Is by Box Car Racers(again, www.youtube.com)

(Gone So Young is all you can get for free, for the others, you can get them from the Type4 members, just ask for them.)

I pretty much made millions of mistakes,but no one seemed to care, or notice? haha. I was half-happy and half-sad that she wasnt there, considering i was crap that day and half-sad because this was the first performance of the band and she didnt get to see. So its such a bittersweet feeling. I left early for band so i didnt get to see the singers. Anyway they were pretty much improv since we didnt have enough planning time.But i thank Jonathan for skipping his lunch to help us out(we owe you one.), Suhail for the part he played in the set-up(good job), and the chapel guys(thanks A LOT, even though i didnt get your names.)

What in the world could she be thinking of me now? freak, or nice guy?(most likely the first)someone tell me...

The Adventure-Angels And Airwaves

(they're a new band featuring former Blink182's Tom DeLonge)

I wanna have the same last dream again, the one where I wake up and I'm alive.

Just as the four walls close me within, my eyes are opened up with pure sunlight.

I'm the first to know, my dearest friends, even if your hope has burned with time,

anything that's dead shall be re-grown, and your vicious pain, your warning sign, you will be fine.

Hey, yo - here I am, and here we go, life's waiting to begin.

Any type of love - it will be shown, like every single tree reach for the sky.

If you're gonna fall, I'll let you know, that I will pick you up like you for I,

I thought this thing, I can't replace. When everyone was working for this goal.

Where all the children left without a trace, only to come back, as pure as gold, To recite this all.

Hey, yo - here I am, and here we go, life's waiting to begin.

Tonight, hey, yo, here I am, and here we go, life's waiting to begin.

I cannot live, I can't breathe unless you do this with me

Hey, yo - here I am (do this with me),

and here we go, life's waiting to begin (do this with me).

Hey, yo - here I am (do this with me).

And here we go, life's waiting to begin, life's waiting to begin.

2006-05-26T10:35:00.000+08:00

26-05-06

Its 10.33 Am here and i'm doing absolutely nothing. I just found out that my ankle is swollen on BOTH sides of my foot( just one foot), so i couldn't go to school today, let alone walk properly. Heck, i'm not even supposed to be using the computer right now.(cause i said i got the sprain from inter-class, they found out it wasnt.) I'm going to be even more dead when they find out my results on 1st june, and yes, i havent told them my horrible results. That's bye bye to my future xbox360... haizz. i dont know when they'll understand me fully.

And oh ya, Jia Yin. I most likely wont be alive for the BBQ tomorrow, so naturally i won't go.

And a soccer note: my goal tally stands at 51 for the last three months. GOALLL!!haha( Only ONE of them a tap-in, the rest from long shots or tight anglers.)

I'm a Box Car Racer addict, you should check them out sometime.

Elevator-Box Car Racer

The building turned its back ignored my call,

The concrete looks too thin to break my fall,

The sunset stretched across this nighttime scene,

I counted people as I neared the street below,

I saw it all, I saw it all go down,

The shadow grew as he approached the ground,

The sunset stretched across this nighttime scene,

I turned away as he came near the street below,

Whoa-oa-oaBelow

Let's forget this all move on

(Dedicated to those who who died on sept-11, just those who opted for suicide rather than being burnt alive or killed in the burning buildings.)

2006-05-25T21:21:00.000+08:00

I just found out that our school band is just playing mission;impossible-2 as our piece for the "razzmatazz" concert. just that song. I'm the Bongo-er. sick. I am SOO lucky i never asked anyone to go to that idiosyncratic concert.

Part 2 exceprt from "We Believe"
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
We believe
In this love

We are all the same, human in all our ways and all our pain(So let it be)
There's a love that could fall down like rain(Let us see)
Let forgiveness wash away the pain(What we need)
And no one really knows what they are searching for(We believe)
This world is crying for so much more

2006-05-25T20:55:00.000+08:00

Post number two. haha. i'm lazy to update lah. anyw today i only had I&E workshop which was, as expected, boring. And !Band!. But that was right after i almost broke my ankle due to a full 90 degree twist of it. seriously. Thank God its only a sprain. So here i am writing my post with a bit of pain in my bloody ankle. how am I going to play for caleb's 2nd leg testimonial match. Anyway, back to band. Our conductor, for the second time, has dropped me from a performance,not actually just demoted me from drummer to bonga-er. lame sia. he opted to call on his beloved senior. Not mentioning anybody. But im okay with it. You have kinda work your way to the top you know. And i had sectionals, like 1 metre away from -- ----. haha. lame.i wonder when i will get the courage to ask her out, finally. Nah, i'lll just wait for it to come.

www.freewebs.com/dream1a
www.freewebs.com/joey_mackx

And elias is like so crazy over shi min. ( i give him 17 days more.) "Go Elias!"

u@n*!$

"What we achieve in life echoes in eternity."

Excerpt from "We Believe"- Good Charlotte

There's a woman crying out tonight, her world has changed
She asks God why, her only son has died
And now her daughter cries, she can't sleep at night
Downtown,Another day for all the suits and ties
Another war to fight, there's no regard for life
How do they sleep at night, how can we make things right?
Just wanna make this right

2006-05-12T16:48:00.000+08:00

Hello. This is my first post so it'll suck. Bear with it. I'd like to start with this. You wake up to find that your friends, your BEST ones have changed, your world is turned around. Think you know all about this? Welcome to My nightmare.

You help them, teach them. And what do they do? They prejudice you and tell you what to do. NEWSFLASH: That's gratefulness for you. "Just great".....

Your best friend, he helps you, teaches you, listens to you, and he's everythihng you want him to be as a friend. Then this girl comes along. he drools, just doing whatever she wants to do. Yet the girl isnt at fault, neither is he. Now he has a 'great' friend, he listens to him, and stands up for him with conviction when you comment about him, now he doesnt even stand up for you or object when other people degrade you or make fun of you, while you do everything you can to prove people wrong of what they think of him. Is that fair?

Welcome to my life. But I won't complain. I'll just see what happens. Its not thier fault anyway,

Watch The World - Boxcar Racer
I watched the smoke, as it grew darker and blew up through the roof
I watched the FED, saw them panic as the fire grew
I saw Virgina get rid of Langley, and it's secrets too
I held your hand and sat there knowing that we'd make it through

I saw this man dispose of hunger, and soap operas too.
I saw this field that grew perfection, full of things you do
I saw this box,get rid of heartache and cure cancer too
When I awoke, I sat there hoping this is what we'll do

If we can, we will leave this letter and a song for you
And we'll write once a day, and put it through the sea to you
We'll regret all those things we thought of, but didn't ever do

If we can, we will leave this letter and a song for you
And we'll write once a day,and put it through the sea to you
We'll regret all those things we thought of, but didnt ever do
When the sky seems to clear, who will be left but a few
Me and you.